WakeMeWhenIBeginToDisappear Ch.12

~Wake Me When I Begin To Disappear~
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Chapter 12



"Did Naruto say anything else?" Jiraya probed for more.
"All he said was he'd clarify everything when he got back…which I don't know when that'll be because he said he was taking a couple more days off…" Kiba sighed in frustration, "That idiot constantly thinks he has to deal with everything on his own!"
Shikamaru commented, "Its how he is. He was reluctant in admitting his problems with us too, remember?"
"We'll just have to wait; you know how stubborn Naruto can be." Sakura remarked.
"What happened to that spiky haired kid who was here earlier?" Jiraya changed the depressing discussion.
"You mean Sasuke? Sakura said he suddenly left without a word." Shikamaru said while turning his attention cleaning some glasses.
"Don't worry about him Jiraya-san. He tends to do whatever he wants and not tell anyone. He's a popular host, so he needs his rest." Sakura reassured.
"Lucky bastard is probably home by now." Kiba scoffed.

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Naruto knew he hadn't slept from the moment he arrived home, yet he was sure he had woken up to a nightmare.
  "W-Wh-What the fuck are you doing at my house!?" he shrieked.
"Checking up on a coward." Sasuke ran his hand through his hair, partly to stop the wind blowing strands into his face.
  "Who are you calling a coward!?" Naruto got pissed.
"If I'm wrong..." Sasuke laid his back against the window frame and stared him straight in the eyes, "then why didn't you show up at work today?"
  Naruto flinched, "…I just didn't feel like going okay!?"
"Don't give me that bullshit. You think I wanted to go to work? I would've fucking stayed in bed too…but I can't afford to…and neither can you." Sasuke pointed out.
  "I already know that!! I don't wanna miss work either! But-!" Naruto stopped himself.
"But what? You don't want to go work because I would be there? …that's pathetic." Sasuke said disgusted.
  Furious, Naruto flung his bed sheets off and stood up facing Sasuke "Shut your fucking mouth!! You don't have any fucking clue what the fuck I'm going through!! If I'm acting like this it's because of your stupid ass for messing with my head!!"
Naruto was giving Sasuke the death glare, but he didn't recoil "How many times am I going to have to ram it through that thick head that you're not the only one being screwed over!?" he barked, "How do you think I felt that one second you were feeling, at least I imagined you were feeling, the same way I was and then basically slapped me in the face when you ran out the way you did!? …I was ticked off! And still am!!"
  No longer willing to hold back, Naruto tightened his fists and yelled, "YOU'RE SO GOD DAMN COMPLICATED!!"
Sasuke was taken aback, yet didn't comprehend. The blonde continued, "I NEVER UNDERSTAND ANYTHING THAT COMES OUTTA YOUR MOUTH! YOU SAY SOMETHING THEN DO THE OPPOSITE!! YOU CONFUSE THE FUCK OUT OF ME!!"
He began to breathe heavy, still he went on a little calmer "I get that…I shouldn't have acted like that out of nowhere…but when 'that' was happening…my mind went blank! I didn't know what I was doing!? …I-I got caught up in the moment………It's just I never thought this type of thing could ever happen between us!! So, in that moment after I….kissed you…all these thoughts started to flood into my head all at once and it freaked me out!! …The only thing I could think was I had to get away! ………I didn't know you would get mad so badly…I…I don't know what to do anymore around you…" his head dropped and Sasuke could see he was trembling.
Sasuke stared at the quivering boy, then slowly got off the window frame and stepped towards him.
  Sensing he was approaching, Naruto took a step back "Don't come near me…!" he meant to scream it, however it came out as a loud whisper.
Their bodies were closely together. Naruto didn't move anymore, giving up trying to escape the persistent raven.
Sasuke broke the silence, "Naruto, look at me."
  He shook his head 'no'.
Then Sasuke said what he was dreading to say, "…I seriously think I'm feeling something for you, Naruto."
  Naruto's eyes widened and he saw Sasuke lean his head against his shoulder.
"That was even more difficult than I expected…" he let out a huge breath, "This is my first time saying this kind of thing…and it is as humiliating as I thought it would be…"
  Sasuke's hair felt silky touching Naruto's skin, "It's not easy taking it all in either…" he mumbled.
"None of this is easy…it was already tough for me to come here…" Sasuke said.
  "Then why did you…?" Naruto asked.
Sasuke felt Naruto jump when he breathed on his neck, "I knew I had to…otherwise, I would've been as restless as you. You really think you'd been alright if we left everything as it is?"
  Naruto figured he could say 'yes', but knew it wasn't the truth, he whispered "…Not really…" Taking in a breath, "Can I ask you something…?" When Sasuke didn't reply, he hesitated "…W-When did you know…that you…I mean when did you start…to 'feel' like this…f-for me…?"
Sasuke chuckled.
  "D-Don't laugh! I mean it! When did you know!?" Naruto blushed. He became more nervous as Sasuke took his time to respond.
"…I'm not sure." He finally choked out.
  "Again with that!?" Naruto grabbed Sasuke's arms instinctively, digging his fingers into his sleeves.
"What I meant was that I can't pick a precise time. If I think back…it was somewhere…during back in middle school…" Sasuke closed his eyes.
"YOU KNEW FOR THAT LONG!?" Naruto was beyond shock.
"Don't yell moron, my ear is right beside your mouth! …and I didn't fully know, I was beginning to realize that maybe I did. I kept fighting myself over whether I was going through a phase or if I was desperate!" Naruto didn't know if he had been insulted, nevertheless he continued to listen "But when…I thought I wouldn't get to see you anymore after we had to look for jobs…I actually got upset…I guess that's when I knew…so, when we both ended up getting employed at the same place…I was…happy. I decided that it didn't matter if you hated me, so long as I was near you…was all I cared about." Sasuke finished.
  Naruto relaxed his hands on Sasuke's elbows, sliding them down to the raven's wrists.
Sasuke couldn't distinguish the action clearly; on the other hand he liked the warm sensation, "It's pretty obvious now that I was wrong…just being near you isn't enough for me…"
  "I…I don't know what I'm supposed to say…" Naruto lowered his hands further so that they covered Sasuke's hands, "After you started acting weird around me…I wasn't sure what the hell was going on between us…For a long time I thought we were something like friends who happened to fight…a lot…but you didn't really feel like 'only a friend'…or someone I hated……..but I did always know…that everything you said or did affected me…and it pissed me off knowing that…From giving me that vampire bite to straight up kissing me…I knew things were changing between me and you…and I didn't know how to react…still don't either!" he sadly grinned.
Sasuke lifted his head to Naruto's ear, still not looking directly at him "I need you to tell me now Naruto…" the blonde went stiff, "If you want to walk away from this…I'll let you and I won't bother you about it again…everything will go back the way it was, with us always fighting and regularly working together…but you need to tell me now…because I will act on how I'm feeling from now on…but unlike our last moment…I don't want you to feel like you did afterwards. Do you want to end this…?"
The sudden proposal surprised the blonde (He seriously wants me to answer him now!? Confessing how I felt earlier was the hardest thing I ever had to do!! My head is starting to hurt from me having to answer so damn fast!!) Naruto awkwardly laughed, "Ha-ha…Can I get back to you later?"
"I'm not joking Naruto. Tell me right now." Sasuke tensed up and so did Naruto.
  (What does he want me to say…? What should I say? What do I want to say to him!? I'm not sure if I can handle everything he's planning on doing or if I'll ever be okay with all of it! He says he'd act as if nothing happened if I say don't want to, would he really be able to do that? With everything he's said I seriously doubt it...…This dude really is an asshole…he knows I could never leave things as they are!!) Naruto squeezed his grip on Sasuke's hands. "Sasuke, you're a real pain in the ass…"
Sasuke raised his face to Naruto's.
  Naruto bumped his head onto Sasuke's and kept it there, "Damn it all! …Okay, fine!!"
"'Fine' what?" Sasuke intertwined their hands.
  "I'll go along with whatever the fuck is going on between us!! Stop making me say embarrassing crap!!" Naruto turned red and hid his face by burying it onto Sasuke's shoulder.
Sasuke smirked. "Come back to work tomorrow then…"
  "OKAY!! Shut up already…!" Naruto bawled into Sasuke's sweater.
Sasuke stopped talking, though he kept their hands locked.
  Although Naruto was somewhat relieved, he didn't know if he resolved things or had finished digging his own grave